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(no subject) [Dec. 16th, 2009|06:41 pm]
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Announcement, announcement, I'm going to Penang! For the weekend, from Friday to Sunday. It's a very short trip but promises to be a luxurious one. My parents are splurging on the Traders Hotel, and they've booked the club room, which is AMAZING. Check this out!

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Isn't that so cool! It's going to cost us some, but papa says it's okay, once in a very long while anyway. We're driving up on Friday morning, and we'll eat and shop and laze around and get a tan (or burn, more likely) on some beach along Batu Feringghi, and then we'll drive back down and I'll have to go on an exercise regime.

Speaking of I jogged for two nights in a row, and if it hadn't rained yesterday I would've made it three nights in a row! Tonight looks nice and cool and clear, so I'll probably be going out to jog again. Goodbye exam fats!

I'm on a vain streak, suddenly. I've discovered mascara and eyeliner and pretty clothes, and now that I have contacts, I can do make up! It's wonderful to feel pretty and dressed, though I'm not really sure I'm that adept at make up yet. I'm trying to get it right though- I really don't want to look like a doll. Michael doesn't like the mascara though. He said I looked scary in prom make up, but I didn't think so.

Also, I went to KTV for the first time in my life yesterday. For once I sang more Chinese songs than I have ever sung or probably will sing in my life! I never knew there were so many. Some of them are pretty nice too, though a staggering amount seem to involve either the boy or the girl dying. They're all love songs, of course. All my friends seem quite knowledgeable about chinese songs, which contributes to my feeling out of place at times. I get the feeling I should know these hit songs, and I should know how to sing them, and speak in chinese but the truth is, I'm pretty dismal at anything beyong simple conversational chinese. One liners.
But at the very least, I could read (most of) the chinese at the bottom of the screen. And it was in the old taiwanese kind of chinese. So there!
Sun is awaaaaaayyyy. Still. I miss her, and I miss firing smses back and forth about our characters and calling her up at random times of the day, and meeting on random days to walk arm in arm around a shopping mall, doing absolutely nothing and talking about what we can do for the next six months. Sigh. She's emailed once, though, and maybe when she gets to Wales she'll have more time for emails.

I've been thinking of doing Christmas cards this year, but I realise I don't have many of my friends addresses. Email ones, of course, but not their real homes. isn't it funny? It's like our lives have been transposed into a digital world, especially for our generation. My parents still get Christmas cards and stuff, but I don't think 30 years from now that I'll be exchanging any cards with people. At least I might keep in touch with them on facebook, though.
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(no subject) [Dec. 8th, 2009|11:51 pm]
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Ahhhh I'm back home!

Yesterday was PROM NIGHT DAY. For the first (and probably the last) time in my life I was out prowling the streets at 3am in the morning. To start chronologically anyway, I started off lazing the day around, worrying about whether I'd mess up my make up and getting butterflies over the excitement. Then I zipped off to J8 to get me a hair tie for the dinner, and then I came home and made myself up. The previous night, it took my nearly an hour to get everything right, but this time, thank god, it only took 20 minutes. I think I didn't look too bad, eh heh.

I cabbed down to the Robertson Quay Hotel where we'd booked a room for the night. The cab driver was a very very talkative guy called Mr Lau, and for some reason or other, we got into a discussion on religion. I've never had such an interesting cab ride before. He was a roman catholic and he was talking about his own experiences or something, and he recommended me two books- Incorruptible and Eucharistic Miracles. I have to go and check that out sometime.

Anyway I hung around the hotel lobby for some time, waiting for my dear darling room mates who'd gone to be made up and poofed up at a salon, and my god, they looked so AWESOME. There was ju, dor and jiayin, and they had their hair done and curled and glittered and their eyes made up and everything. We went up to the hotel room, touched up on make up, got changed, and then cabbed to swissotel.

The prom itself was pretty okay. The performances were really good. The IP girls did a very sexy opening dance, and the IP boys danced to super junior's sorry sorry. Except they called themseves super seniors, of course! Then there were the band performances and the western dancers also gave a performance.
The food was.. okay, very typical, but I think one of the nicest parts of the evening was the free photoshoot. We got group shots- both and big and small- and individual pictures as well.

The interesting part of the evening came after that! It was a bit boring at parts- and very tiring, but it was an experience I suppose everyone should have once. We went clubbing. Well, sorta, anyway. We headed back to the hotel for ju, dor, jy and lx to change into a post prom outfit. Then we walked alllll the way to the Helipad, which is actually a very nice place. It's sort of on top of a carpark, and that late at night, the carpark's very empty, and the city looks so beautiful. You go up these stairs from the carpark and you come up on a wooden deck- the helipad, i guess- and there are softly illuminated tables and seating areas scattered here and there. The breeze is awesome. If they playes nice music, it's the kind of place I'd like to visit with friends.
The purpose of the evening, however was to get a clubbing experience, so off we went into clarke quay proper. Half the pubs were closed, but some were open, like one called Clinic. The furniture was like hospital beds with metal hospital bed-rails for chair backs, and there were even a few wheel chairs scattered around. Fascinating! Then we decided we would crash the SAJC post prom party at The Supper Club. Yuenteng and yuxian were with us till then, but they went home when we cabbed to supper club.

It was crazy when we got there. People queueing up to go in- for $18 a ticket, plus one free drink- and one rather drunk girl who was being propped up by her boyfriend. Her friends were trying to send her home, but she insisted she was fine and in the next moment, nearly fell over in her heels.

I must say this trend for showing flesh is really horrible. I don't know, I don't think it flatters anyone. It hugs the hips and the thighs, and makes girls look short and dumpy and unbeautiful. There were so many girls dressed like that.

Anyway, inside the club was really noisy. There were two levels to it, and along each wall were beds. Yeah, beds. I suppose they took supper club quite literally- after supper you go to bed, right? The music was... okay. That wasn't particularly enjoyable, because you really cannot dance without nice music that you can sing along to. There were all these weird techno beat thingies.

As for drinking, after seeing all those drunk girls staggering around and drunk boys bellowing at each other and acting ridiculously on the dancefloor, I didn't really fancy getting tipsy, so I tried not to drink so much. We shared drinks, but I ended up having about a cup's worth of various flavoured vodkas. I can tell why people get drunk- the alcohol is so light and masked by all the fruity flavours (we had an apple vodka and cranberry vodka) that you can drink like a fish and not realise how high you are. Some people certainly didn't. I got a front seat view of a full girl on girl french liplock. They looked like they were having fun. I wouldn't want to be them when the videos their friends were shooting go up on facebook. There was also this really annoying guy who was in a happy place who kept grinding up against us. I couldn't really tell, since we were all packed like sardines.

AAaanyway, I'm getting really tired, so I have to finish this!
Me, ju and dor cabbed home at about 5, and lx and jy walked. I slept at about 6 and woke up at 8, and lazed around till 9. Then we had breakfast (which we didn't pay for hee hee) and walked around outside taking pictures till 1130. It's not like the breakfast was spectacular, anyway. It was a three star hotel, so it was edible, but not by any means fancy or sumptous. And they wanted to charge us $8++ for it.

And then I came home. And that's it so far.

I'm SLEEPY. Good night!

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(no subject) [Dec. 4th, 2009|05:11 pm]
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I cleaned up my room today! I cleaned up all my notes, and made piles, and then I labelled the piles with coloured paper and bound them with rubber bands. My brother should be very very thankful. They make such pretty piles, with a sheet of coloured paper in front of each. I'm so proud of myself! There was a surprisingly gentle cathartic feeling, going through all my notes and getting rid of all the excess, un-needed excercises and papers.
That's all I did today though. It took a lot of time, you'd be surprised, and my back was achiiiing after I finished, because I was sitting on the floor and bending over everything. I must have killed so many trees this year.

Yesterday was my parents' wedding anniversary- their 21st. We didn't really do much.. my Mum didn't want us to go out (so that we could shop for their present) so Michael and I ended up following her to IMM. Daniel was at Sentosa with his friends >.>
Iv'e never been to IMM before. It's amazingly popular. The queues going in were fantastic. At IMM anyway, we found this jigsaw shop with a very very nice Philippino guy who served us. Mummy was looking for her anniversary present for papa, so we looked around quite extensively in the jigsaw shop. Papa loves jigsaws. We picked up a 1500 piece puzzle of van Gogh's Cafe A La Nuit (The Night Cafe). It is beyoootiful, but when we got started on it that night, I realised how hard it is.. I mean for non-painting stuff, you can sort of tell what the next piece is, but for a painting it's that much difficult, cos of the brushstrokes? You can't quite tell whether the next piece will be the same shade, or the same direction of stroke.

Ack my back still aches. Going for choir farewell tonight!
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2009|02:57 pm]
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We trimmed the Christmas tree over the weekend! These are some pictures. The dogs were ALL in the way. Casper kept wanting to take part in the fun, but didn't know quite how to join in.. He was actually scared of the Christmas tree when it first went up!




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RIP David Eddings [Nov. 17th, 2009|09:06 pm]
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David Eddings died on 2 June 2009. And I didn't even know about until now, 5 months later.

David Eddings was my all time favourite fantasy author. His books- cowritten with wife Leigh- were a bright spot in my Secondary school days because they were witty, sharp, heart-warming and insanely real. I could practically predict what the characters would say or do because the prose was so well-written. The feeling of admiration and wonder and belief never fades with each time I reread their series of books, and I should know, because I'm now halfway through my millionth reread. I think part of my writing stems from a need to imitate their style, or at least create something half as enjoyable as their books. The fact that there are no more David Eddings books to look forward to saddens me greatly. For all the joy and laughter and excitement that they have given, I wish them peace, wherever they are. RIP, David and Leigh Eddings.
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A chapter of unfortunate incidents [Oct. 22nd, 2009|11:44 am]
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Three things happened to me recently. Of course, recently would have to be at least a week ago- I've been online a lot but I haven't touched this lj in some time x)

First of all, I was playing badminton in slippers on the road outside my house one day. As anyone could tell you, it's a very silly thing to do. But putting on shoes is such a bother- and so hot as well. It's a lot safer, though, as my mum admonished afterwards. After she finished laughing. I fell down while trying to return a serve. My right ankle twisted and I completely lost my balance, and somehow my left leg got the brunt of my fall. At first I thought I'd twisted my ankle, at the worst. Then I saw that my left knee was grazed, my whole left leg from knee to ankle bore some long scratches, and my left big toe had a hunk of skin scratched off. And it wouldn't stop bleeding! And it was very painful. I got myself into the house. but I nearly fainted on the way XD Which is odd for me, okay, I'm not the kind of person to faint.

Now how'm I going to go to prom in a dress. More than a week after, my grazes are all peeling off and it looks horrible. Like something savaged my leg D:

Second, I fell asleep that night and woke up with a sprained wrist. How anyone can possibly sprain their wrist in their sleep is beyond me, but clearly, I'm capable of the impossible. I must've slept with it twisted in the wrong way. And worst of all it was my right wrist! So I could hardly write the entire morning! And then I thought of the chinese medicinal plasters that my mum kept and went to fish them out of her drawer. They didn't help much. My mum laughed and laughed when she came home because first of all, I'd injured myself again and in my sleep and I'd put on the wrong sort of plaster. It wasn't even a plaster. I was some sort of adhesive backing for the plaster itself.

I maintain that it wasn't my fault though; it was the only one out of its packet and my mum gets so annoyed when we open new things when there're still old ones left. So it's not my fault!

Third, a few days ago, I woke up with this vague dream that I'd been getting out of bed, but fell out of bed instead and injured my right foot. When I threw back the covers, I found that I'd scraped the skin off one of my right toes, somehow.

Needless to say, my entire family was extremely amused. I was very good entertainment for that week.

Li laoshi was nicer though. After she finished laughing she assured me that nothing bad should happen again because good things- and bad things always come in threes in the tales.

An eventful week huh. I injured three limbs in the course of seven days. I feel so accomplished XD
 

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I'M LEGAL. [Sep. 22nd, 2009|04:33 pm]
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I turned 18 just two days ago on 20.09.2009!

So many people gave me earrings, which I love. I should be reincarnated as a nine-headed elephant goddess, so I could wear my entire collection at once! Joji, my brothers and jiayin each got me a pair. My brothers also got me a necklace, sweet things that they are. It's cool and tribalish looking and black, which suits me very well. Sun WROTE YAY. Yuenteng, Lixin and Jeslyn got me this beautiful notebook which has line drawings and french words scrawled across the cover and lovely blank pages the colour of vanilla. Jiewen got me an awesome set of pink and purple marker pens which I've already used in my book. It says in happy bright colours:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

And Shamini, lovely sweet sham, got me a wonderful small cake from four leaves which tasted like heaven.

On this my eighteenth birthday! I would like to say thank you to a whole load of people.
In order of whichever happens to come to my mind first....

SUN: dude, thank you for these 4 years. For all the weird conversations and the hastening to lab, the long walks during recess, the writing, the characters, the tears and the squealing, the roleplays, the ideas, the smses, the going out, the expensive non-coffee at tcc, everything, thank you. I couldn't have made it without you! You're my gateway to our other world. You make me smile when I'm down or up and laugh all the time.

Nadia: Thank you for the 3 years that you chose to stay close to me. I'll never forget squealing over the slightest thing, giggling uncontrollably about half-naked statues in Wisma Atria, the drawings you made so lovingly.

My classmates: For the mugging feverishly together, the moaning together, the planning outrageous outings to Butter Factory, the tears and the stress, the wonderful support that I've found this past year that really really made me feel loved and above all like I belong, thanks!

In particular to jiewen, jiayin, yuenteng, for sticking together when we had no one else last year but ourselves, and for still sticking together in all difficulties!
Also to ju, dor, dolly and lixin, thanks for the wonderful new friendships.
To my pw group! for all the entertainment last year and the camwhoring when things seemed so tense and stressed.

To the Council. To whoever has helped me grow in character, helped me become stronger and helped me find out more about myself, thank you so much. For one whole year of heady memories- sleeping at 3, waking at 6, sleeping in lectures, chionging together, the retreat, all the adhocs. All for one, one for all.
To LAURA, for always being there and seeking me and the talks we share and for confiding in me. For helping me see different sides to everything and keep an open mind.
To Tracy and ZX, I will never forget Philippines! All those long commiserating sessions and standing up for each other and helping each other, and the support.
To Shu and Max and Molly and Tracy, for including me sometimes in your inner circle, and for always being so open and friendly with me.
To Geraldine, whose contributions sometimes went unnoticed. I always remember your little notes and sweets that brought a sparkle to the day.

To Ben Chow, you! You with your completely inappropriate innuendos, the made up songs about Po, Po, Po at 1 am, the story telling, the confiding in me, the disparaging of my utter lack of scandal, the bad relationship advice. You've made me see a completely different facet of life and remind me continually that life isn't all cookie-cutter. Sometimes you've got to mess around in the dough a bit before it begins to rise. All the best to you, hon.

To the KI circle, for the laughter and entertainment last year when I so badly needed somewhere to fit in and be accepted. For still trying to keep together despite all odds, despite the fact that I can't meet you guys often at all, for the donut picnics! The lovely awesome donut picnics. For going out to concerts and laughing on the MRT home. For that day when we met at my place and made spaghetti and watched a completely scary movie. Hongjie, Joe, Joji, Bingyang, Vishwaz, and all the rest.
To Joji in particular, thank you for being such a wonderful friend to me in AJ. I'll never forget you, even though we had three short months together! All the best darling, and I'll see you in NUS.

To my OG mates and choir mates in AJ. Thanks for making it a home for me.

To my NJChoirfamily! To the fun we had at Cantab, practising and learning new songs and laughing. For the joint effort, sweat and tears and blood in clinching our SYF GWH, the long gruelling sessions where Ms Lim would just scream at us and we'd be all disheartened. Still, we never gave up hope, and we persevered and MADE IT.
To Ms Lim for being such a wonderful and loving conductor. You made me absolutely love choir!
To my lovely Sops, for all the scoldings we got learning Denn, the screechings we had to learn to overcome, the strained voices, the weariness. The wonderful cakes we had to celebrate birthdays and the angel-mortal letters we wrote to spur each other on.
To sheena and shamini and stefanie, for being there and being supportive and being awesome people.
To xuemin for being so friendly to a newbie and great fun to talk to.

Have I missed out anyone! I really hope not.

And last, but very very definitely not the least, to my awesome wunnavakind family who have loved me and supported me and made me laugh. Words fail me when it comes to thanking them. I woudn't be who I am today without them at all.
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Wade Robson, John Mayer and the Internet [Sep. 17th, 2009|06:14 pm]
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John Mayer first. I have fallen in LOVE with Slow Dancing in a Burning Room. It's so poignant, so full of sadness and despair and desperation that it's really a very very bad song to listen to when you're in the midst of exams. Nevertheless. It's so eloquent and perfect, I can't help listening to it over and over again.



Working backwards now. The original reason I came to discover this song was because of Wade Robson. The utterly crush-worthy, dashing young male choreographer and brilliant dancer who choreographed two pieces on the show So You Think You Can Dance that clinched two Emmy awards. I tell you he's so slick and wonderful, and the creative thought that must have gone into it! And he appears to do it so effortlessly as well. It's such a pity he's married, I tell you. Anyway, he choreographed the dance to the supremely sad Slow Dancing in a Burning Room, seen above, as well as the two below.

(Isn't the first one so brilliant? It's so visually descriptive. Tension, love, lust, anger, frustration, desire, despair, tension, always tension, despair, love.)

This was from SYTYCD and was set to The Chairman's Waltz from the soundtrack of Memoirs of a Geisha.



LOVELY YES. It's so Cirque Du Soleil. The lines are beautiful, the imagery is so real. The piece is so unique to both of them!

And this:


Wade Robson is the guy in long billowy white sleeves, the first of the guys that come tapping their canes down the stairs. The one with the jabot of lacey stuff at his throat. The one with the elegantly, florid, decadent bow that says 'Welcome to My Castle' with a flash of ominous lightning and Dracula like flash backs, except he's ever so much cooler than Dracula.
-IS IN LOVE-

It's funny how I came to all this. It all started with me and Sun checking out this facebook post by Charissa Chen- a video called Punk Tango, or something. It was a punky sort of new tango, very saucy and very sexy, and set to Ramalama. Which led me to look for Ramalama, which led me to find the SYTYCD choreography, which led me to find the Hummingbird and Flower one, which led me to look for Wade Robson [<3] which led to the discovery of Slow Dancing in a Burning Room.

Isn't it wonderful how the world is so interlinked?
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(no subject) [Sep. 1st, 2009|09:02 pm]
Despite unequal ways,
Together they mutate.
Explore the edges of harmony,
Searched for a centre;
Have changed their gods;
Kept some memory of the past
In prayers, laughter, the way
Their women dress and greet,
They hold the bright, the beautiful
Ancestral dreams
Within new visions,
So shining, so urgent,
Full of what is new.

-Ulysses by the Merlion, Edwin Thumboo.

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(no subject) [Aug. 26th, 2009|11:35 pm]
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It's just one week to the prelims. I'm so unprepared as compared to the O Levels, by now, 2 years ago, I'd be in tears. I suppose it would be a measure of how much I've grown that I can withstand the pressure. Or stress. Or maybe I'm not that stressed, which is just odd, becuase the A Levels are supposed to be more important and much more crucial than the Os.

You know, the exNJCians now in NUS medicine came back and told us about how much mugging it comprised. Right now, I'd give anything to go back and be a bit more studious- even at the expense of the social life and the experiences I had.
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2009|05:20 pm]
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"It is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want of a wife." - Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice.

Some days I wish I were in that world, or at least that I were Elizabeth Bennet- in possession of looks and character and great sense and ultimately destined to fall in love with a man who could match her wit and temper. And other days, I think I'd be completely bored if my days were confined to (attempting) witty conversation, sewing, clothes, and primping myself up to catch a wealthy man.

Anyway, something I didn't blog about recently. About two weeks ago, my maid Niko was sent home. She'll never be allowed to work in Singapore again. She stole- from what we can prove- nearly a thousand dollars worth of USD, my mum's diamond bracelet, my brother's treasured collection of old notes and God knows what else. She was practically a kleptomaniac- we took back from her bedsheets that she'd secreted away into boxes in her room, baking trays and cake tins, old clothes, new clothes, my mum's BRA, my mum's sapphire and diamond ring, her costume jewellry, a pair of diamond studs, my own silver hoops, my bag, notebooks from my drawer in which I kept my diary- CAN YOU IMAGINE HER LOOKING THROUGH MY DIARY WTF- ballpoint pens and coloured sparkly pens- everything that caught her eye, she took. Naturally my parents were incensed.

See, we've been discovering that our pocket money's been missing for some time- since the beginning of the year, in fact. We've confronted her twice on it. The theft seemed to stop for a bit, but then my father caught her stealing from his wallet. My mum went down to the maid agency and eventually decided to get a new maid. She didn't tell Niko, of course. Then the next night, my tuition teacher who's been with us since Michael was 6 months old so she's a family friend, really, persuaded Michael to tell my Mum about his notes. My grandfather's been saving up old notes for really long- notes from the bird series and ship series, really valuable ones that may be $5 at face value but worth a lot more as collector's items. She took them. My Mum was so mad, she marched the maid down to her room and made her take everything out. Through the long night that followed, we found all of the above plus 5 handphones. She'd taken two of the old ones from us and had bought three really expensive ones from her own pocket. FIVE HANDPHONES. Who needs FIVE?!

At about 12, my parents called the police. They came down and uncovered even more hidden stuff.

In the end my parents decided not to arrest her, out of pity for her daughter. The maid had run off and eloped with a man and was consequently disowned. The man left her for another woman. She claimed she was stealing to support her daughter, but really..

So in the end, they sent her off the very next day, and my mum will make a police report so that MOM will blacklist her. The court process would have been lengthy and tedious and costly. So my parents are just happy to get her out of our lives and make sure she never returns to Singapore.

I think the thing that repulses me the most was that she went through all my intimate things. My diaries and notebooks, my clothes, my mum's jewellry cupboard. And to think about how much she'd been stealing from us. We found the remittance receipts she kept. She has a salary of $300. starting from December last year, she was remitting between $300-400 EVERY FORTNIGHT. Where the hell did she get that money from? And all the time I'd been feeling so guilty becuase I thought I was spending so much, not keeping tabs on my spending.

Also, we came back from Malaysia in June and my parents' and brothers' beds were infested with bed bugs, which is like the most awful thing. Bed bugs are for dirty people- or at least that's the common perception. We found pictures of a swarthy young man in her room and a porno video. She probably brought her boyfriend to sleep in my parents' bed. Which is just... such a VILE thought.

Anyway we have a new maid! For one week we had to keep house ourselves, and I was so tired. I'm such a spoilt kid. I could've managed if we didn't have a maid, i think, but it's a lot better to have one. It felt a lot better when we went through all her things that she left behind- she was only allowed to bring a suitcase back, which is pretty fair in my opinion- and threw nearly everything out. And washed everything. And scrubbed our things clean. So it's time to put this in the memories. I haven't written about it, partially because of lack of time, and also because I feel so disgusted.

So there you go. Into the archives this goes.
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2009|12:16 am]
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My dad these days keeps telling me the importance of getting a boyfriend and marrying young. You would've thought that your parents would tell you to study first and all that, but he says get a boyfriend and uni and get married! Of course it's logical, when he's explained it. Let's say you get married at 35, instead of earlier at 24 or 25. For 2, 3 years, it's just the two of you, just enjoy things a bit. Then you have kids. Say one at 38 and another at 40. Say you have your last kid at 40. If it's a boy, he'll end up going to NS, and by the time he's out of uni, he'll be 25, and you'll be 65. Which means working till 65, and possibly beyond, so you have enough cash for your retirement.

That isn't a fate I wanna end up with of course. I'm retiring by 55 by hook or by crook, and then I'll be a nice old grandmother who's wicked with the cards and the mahjongh tiles. With a nicely padded tummy too.

Right now though all his lecturing just gets on my nerves, because I've gone right past that IWANNABOYFRIEND stage, back to when I was 8 and all IHATEBOYS. Boys boys boys. At this age they're so GROSS. They're immature. Take any gang of boys and listen to them for a while. I'm pretty sure after 5 minutes, you'll find them dissing someone else- and they're not sparing with the foul words either. It's even worse than girls' bitching, because girls tend to not words like fucking cibai. It's immature and it's annoying. They're gross- most of them don't cut their nails and grow them really long, and they're mostly skinny and underfed. Some of them don't even have an ounce of chivalry in them.

Besides that I tend to take a long term view of things, and I can't imagine being married to anyone. Can't imagine being close enough that I'm willing to stand his farting or belching or walking into the toilet after he's done shitting. Or even kissing him and tasting what he had for dinner.

For those girls who have managed to find a lovely boy who doesn't fit any of the characteristics described above, my hat goes off to you. for those girls look at the world through the lens of love, I really wish I could be you. To be able to have someone's companionship, to have one constant in your life, to have someone support you and love you and care for you, and want to be there for you forever... well, it must be beautiful. Maybe one day I'll find a boy like that too. But for now, I think I'm contented in my singlehood. I've got my girlfriends, after all, and after this... ordeal of the A Levels, I promise to myself that I will grow up and go out and paint the town red.

I WANT UDDERS ICE CREAM!
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I'm addicted to you (FB) [Jul. 24th, 2009|07:52 pm]
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It's official! I'm Facebook addicted. I could've told you that a week before the common tests, though. And now I have all the results from that horrible ordeal back and I am NOT happy with some of them.

Maths: teensy improvement to D! (50)
Chem: S (42- not a U but..)
Econs: U (37, should NOT have happened.)
Bio: E (DROPPED THREE GRADES FROM B TO E WTH.)
GP: D (52.5, screwed up the essay biiig time.)

And there it is. Not a single quality grade! And I usually get at least a B for Bio and GP! In fact, I always get at least a B. The only consolation is my Maths which I moved up by a grade, but really, a D is 50-54, so I'm borderline. Miserable grades.

take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time.


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(no subject) [Jul. 2nd, 2009|01:07 pm]
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNN!

I haven't updated in ages. My June hols didn't go the way I wanted it to and neither did my CTs. But at least I had a good Malaysia trip. Oh but before it slips my mind I have to talk about these weird dreams I've been having. I end up not remembering most of them, but on the night before my last paper, I dreamed I got two GP essays back. It was so real I could feel the ridges my pen had pressed into the paper and smell the ink. My teacher gave me 21/40 for one of them and 22/40 for the other. And then sometime later in the night, I dreamed I was re-sitting my Bio paper, and one of them questions was 'Name 7 different kinds of amino acids in banana.' With a charming little comment after- "(Just try! (: )" ...... I don't think you can beat that for weirdness, but if it's any coincidence, one of the Chemistry questions was about an amino acid in asparagus. I'm not going to comment on that.

Let me tell you about my holidays, then.
In the first week, I had Pre U Sem. Which was actually interesting, and I had a lot of fun, meeting lots of different people. What surprised me, though, was that quite a few of my group members were retainees- and it was quite common, apparently, for a lot of people to get retained. I guess in NJ it's different. Only a handful get retained each year, not more than 20, I should think. And they seemed quite alright with it. Like, so what, it's only another year. I'd love to have that kind of attitude, but I think if it were me, I'd berate myself so much, because it'd seem like... failure.. to me. To each his own. Other than that meeting all the different people and running around was fun. There was also some sewing thing involved, and I'm pretty proud of my piece!


It's a tree of love blooming from a crisis.


The Pre-U Sem bunch at the beach after the last game.

And then was my Malaysia trip!

These days, going to Malaysia always seems more interesting. I notice things more these days, I think, and I imagine more. Somehow all the little details- the way the trunk roads are always dusty, and the railway runs beside the road, the houses and the trees and the signs and all the little details build a picture that's so DIFFERENT from Singapore. I think that's what makes it refreshing. When I go up to Malaysia, I usually go to a place called Serendah, It's about 70 km north of KL city proper, and it used to be a small town but is quite large now. It's about half an hour from Genting and an hour and a half to Fraser's Hill. It's not by the highway, more like off the trunk road, which is the way most Malaysian towns are. The town is sprawling larger now than 9 years ago, and it reminds me of those abandoned Western towns, because you've got these new rows of shophouses, but most of them are closed, or else have things like mini-marts, tyre shops, car shops and eateries scattered around. In some ways it's so rural you can hardly believe it.

I went to this town called Ulu Yam on the second day there to eat, and the toilet was just a small room with a hole in the floor. You know the kind of holes you find next to the toilet that has a round cover with round holes in it? Yeah, that.

My relatives live in a beautiful house up on a hillside in a golf resort that used to be pretty rich, but now is quite rundown. The drive up the hill is a single lane, so you have to squeeze to the side when another car is on the way. Their house is on a pretty steep side, and they've made it so beautiful. The gardens have all sorts of flowers and there's a little bridge over a series of ponds that hold their fish. The ponds are filled with water that they pipe down from the hills, and so you get wonderful tasting fish with NO fishy taste at all! On our last day, they caught tilapia, and my great aunt fried them. Like all the other women in my grandmother's generation of the family, is a fantastic cook, but what was really really nice was that the fish was so fresh and non fishy. Then they've got this little alcove near the ponds where there's an outdoor shower and a tiled, sunk in area, where you can have a spa! And the water is hill water, and therefore so cold you can freeze your fingers. On a hot day, it's heaven. We went in and my mother and I wore red sarongs that turned the water pink. It was quite funny, except the dye made all the bubble bath bubble-less ):    Over the years, they also built a loft and an outdoor kitchen. All by themselves, mind. I remember them walking across the skeleton loft and moving beams up.

Anyway, I had a blast. Not sure if it was worth the absence of studying but... it was a good break, I guess. I drove the car (on a deserted road with my mum next to me ready to grab the wheel in case i 'drove into a ditch'). I also got to shoot a rifle. Watched my brothers shoot a shot gun. The shot gun was bigger and much much louder than the rifle, and I didn't think the damage to my ear drums was worth it heh. Went shopping. Went to an outdoor spa in my aunt's backyard that was filled with freezing cold water from the hills. Drove up to Fraser's Hill (where it was an unbelievable 21 degrees.) Stayed in a gorgeous new hotel that reminded me of Australia. Ate more durian than was healthy for me. Ate MORE than was healthy for me. For four days of holiday, not bad, I think!


L-R: sunrise at Pasir Ris Park (Bare your Soul), sunset at Sentosa (PreU Sem), sunset outside the Gardens Hotel (M'sia).

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who needs dating?! [Jun. 18th, 2009|05:50 pm]
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Just recently- just over an hour ago, in fact- a friend of mine published one of those facebook notes with 174 random questions about herself. And I just wondered, who the hell needs dating nowadays, when you could read a couple of these long long (and often boring) notes to know nearly everything about a person.

Sorry to those who make those notes. Lord knows I do some of them too. But come on, they're boring. Mine are, yours are, everyone's notes get boring after a while. Because they're so TEDIOUS. And why would I want to know what's on your bed right now? Or when you last kissed someone? And anyway wouldn't I rather meet you for a chat or a coffee or a tea or something to know you better?

I had a point here, but I'm going about it rather clumsily. Anyway the point is, I find notes like that sad. And indicative of the kind of control the media has over us nowadays. And how we can't even meet face to face or talk to the people we call friends on facebook anymore, but have to read electronic notes full of silly little questions to know them better.

For those who are avid note-writers, I'm sorry! This really isn't meant to offend.

Anyway, I'm back from Malaysia! At some other time I'll post the pictures and tell you all bout it.
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2009|10:08 pm]
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I don't recall when I last logged in, but I'm sure it was a very long time ago. Oh my.

Anyway, things that happened recently: Pre University Seminar, Matthias, Bare Your Sole, and Farm Town. I loved the first, I'm confused about the second, I got so many insect bites from the third, and I'm addicted (oh dear, here it goes) to the last.

I'M OFF! For an unspecified number of days. Mum doesn't know when we're coming back, for once. She doesn't even know when we're leaving, but it's some time tomorrow. I'm not even packed yet! I like the spontaneity of this trip. It wasn't really spontaneous to begin with, but it certainly feels like it.

Anyway, TILL THEN, ADIOS!

love, chel.
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a million words, spoken and read. [May. 27th, 2009|09:37 pm]
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I feel old when I open my email inbox. I feel like my parents- having emails to deal with. It's much better these days, I get about 10 emails a week as opposed to 10 every day, as a once did. On the other hand, I've had to deal with so many things over email recently. The repressed rantings of an abused person. The peppery indignant replies back and forth over a certain person and subject. Trying to get done in a long email conversation what could much more easily have been done over, say, an hour long meeting. It's so tiresome, and when you think about it, I think email sometimes hinders more than helps. God knows it introduces so much more confusion and room for interpretation- which isn't necessarily good.
Anyway, if you put together all the emails I've typed since May last year, I'll probably have enough words for several thesis and a mini essay. Thousands of words rattled out on this old keyboard.

It's been words and words and words recently! I've been reading so much, again. I went to the library about three weeks ago and borrowed 4 books. After I finished those I quickly went through my old bookshelf again and read books, some of which I haven't touched in years. Falling Leaves, Waters Luminous and Deep by Meredith Ann Pierce, What Katy Did, Anne of Green Gables, The Lady and the Unicorn by Tracy Chevalier, The Little House on the Prarie, Little Town on the Prairie, the Long Winter, Neil Gaiman's American Gods, Good Omens. It feels so good to feel all those words so fresh again in my mind. I love how words can conjure up a scene so easily and effortlessly.

And then I've been spoiling myself with movies. Last night we watched Angels and Demons, and it was brilliant. The direction was quite pretty, but not so artsy as to lose the point of the scene and make you feel dissatisfied. The action was just nice, and not in your face Rambo/Terminator type. Tom Hanks could've done a better job of Robert Langdon. The woman playing Vittoria Vetra was.. okay. I liked Ewan McGregor even if he did look a bit put on at times, but overall I think he gave a compelling performance, from the first introduction, to when he doused himself in oil and burned himself alive. I thought the pacing was good for the whole movie. But I think best of all I like that there are no recognisable Hollywood faces, so you really concentrate on the other things a lot more instead of just watching the movie. I like that the best.

And then this afternoon I watched A Fish Called Wanda (1988) which is such a cute British movie, written and co-directed by Monty Pythoner John Cleese, starring Michael Palin, another Monty Pythoner. And the humour was just AWESOME. There were times when I couldn't catch it, but then at other times it comes through so clearly, you just sit there a bit perplexed, because it's not outright funny. It's sort of snidely British funny. In the I'm-chuckling-at-this-but-can't-guffaw-because-heavens-that'd-be-far-too-embarrassing way. And the actors are good, they're so much BETTER than the Hollywood these days. I mean, Michael Palin plays a man with a st-stu-stut-st-stuttter so well that you're just shocked at the Special Features to hear him speaking perfectly normally. And of course, the film's a classic whodunnit, with a girl called Wanda trying to outwit her Nietzche-quoting psychopathic boyfriend, a stuttering animal lover, a classic bumbling, English barrister and a fourth man out of a clutch of diamonds.  Go get it.

I wonder in 40 years if you'd get tired of all the words. There's only so many ways you can play with them, but in the end would you get bored? Maybe that's why people go learn other languages.

Speaking of other languages, one day I'd love to learn Esperanto. Go check that out too.
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(no subject) [May. 9th, 2009|07:53 pm]
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Mama Afrika, composed by Sydney Guillaume, who also wrote two of our SYF pieces.

Brilliant.
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(no subject) [May. 9th, 2009|07:22 pm]
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Oh my, it's been too long. Anyway, I didn't realise I had a draft saved, until I opened lj to type a new post. The draft read:

I'm back from boaaaaaarding!

It was such a fun experience! It really isn't as bad as people say it is. I mean, my room's floor was sandy and the cupboards were dusty- but it's the normal just-after-construction-never-been-used-before kind of dust. Which is perfectly fine! I mean, even new furniture gets that kind of dust. The food wasn't too bad either. Granted, if you've eaten it everyday for the past term, you'd be a little bored, but it was plentiful- rice, three dishes, soup- and warm and filling. And there were always fruits and cold water or barley or syrup, or something.

Anyway, I shared a room with yuexi, who makes a fantastic room mate, and we lived on the 7th floor, in room 707. (Such a nice number.) Tracy and Shu Hui were over at 708, across a corridor, and we had other elects on our floor as well. There were some other scholars too, like Stef and Tiffany (from choir) and Midzung. We were near the door of the bathroom, but that was okay, since the bathroom's quite quiet, and it isn't humid or anything, and it's like you step out, take 4 steps, and yay you can brush your teeth! Our floor didn't have a pantry.... but it did have an ironing board, fridge and kettle.

Living in boarding was


So I think that kind of partially exaplins my long, long absence.

From 24- 26 April, I was at the Elects' Camp, which is kind of like a really strenous camp where the new Council gets trained. I returned home for half a day, and then from 26 April to 30 April, I stayed at the Boarding School.
Since then, it's been choir, choir, choir, intensive and hard, but ultimately the most rewarding thing ever, because we walked onto that stage at the Victoria Concert Hall on the 5th of May, and performed like we'd never performed before, and came off the stage with a wild sense of happiness in our hearts, and a Gold with Honours in hand.

One of the choristers blogged later:

The National Junior College Choir. Oh my, I don't know where to start. Seriously. It has been one heck of a ride. It has been one heck of a mad, mad, INSANELY EXCITING ride. It has been one ride that I so reluctantly have to get off in the near future.


And it's been like that for me.

I remember thinking last year that I couldn't ever be as close to the choir as I was to Council, because I spent so much of my life in Council that I couldn't possibly have any more to give to Choir. But this year proved me wrong, and I have never ever felt like I belonged so much to a group of people and individuals.

The feeling of our last song, when we just threw ourselves into the music and exultation of the song, and DANCED, and the feeling of the crowd breaking out into loud applause at the end of it cannot be equaled with much else.

I need to remember always,
the nights standing in the AVA, feeling beaten
the days we stood in a circle and danced to the Kalinda together
the times we practised Sounds of Joy, wishing we were as joyful as we were supposed to be
singing in LT5 for the first time and getting Denn right
Ms Lim's face when we did something right
Xiang's patient and dedicated teaching
her beautiful voice inspiring us sops to sing even better
sitting around after practice with sandwiches that the comm got for us
octet sessions, painful and tough as they were
the octet performances, hearing that everyone was just as frightened as we were, realising that we were nothing alone, but everything together
the messages flying about the night before our choir workshop at ACS(I)
the ACS(I) performance, feeling that subtle click when we came together
the practices afterwards, trying to get that synchrony and harmony back
Ms Lim telling us that she would never ever ever give us up on stage
the messages flooding my inbox on 4th May
people in class and council, who cared enough to wish us best of luck
standing in the wings, listening to CJC, then Dunman high perform, feeling my nerves climbing
ms lim's face and voice as she walked along down the rows to calm us, tell us to smile, tell us we were ready
climbing on the VCH stage for the last time
Standing on the risers, feeling my fingers grow cold, my toes numb, my mind suddenly buzzing with lights and the audience moving
breathing on the risers, fixing my gaze on ms lim
her hands rising to conduct
the first note of Sounds of Joy, ringing triumphantly through the hall
going sharp, so sharp it was nerve shattering
put that thought outof my mind and moving on to Denn
hearing Shamini's voice ring out behind me, rich and confident, and hearing my own voice rise along with it
the last note, wavering
moving into Kalinda, hearing the quiet sadness in the guy's voices.
the drums
the music and the dancing and the knowing we could do this together
the last part, accelerating faster than anything in practice
racing through the last sentence of the song, feeling the breath being sucked out of my lungs, not caring and pulling even more out to give the song
the last triumphant Ayibobo!
the audience clapping wildly, our seniors screaming
coming out, with the vague sense of, had it been enough?
sitting at Serene Centre's Mcdonald's, laughing with the rest of them,
in the choir store, laughing wildly and playing card games recklessly
sitting in the InE hub, singing because our nerves were too high, and because I just couldn't stop after Kalinda put the rhythym in my veins, and because we were all there, together.
listening to the rough static of the phone, feeling vaguely sure that we'd get the GwH, but not knowing either
hearing, faintly, clearly,
National Junior College: Gold.. With Honours
jumping up and screaming as the room erupted
hugging shamini and stefanie and sheena and zhong jie and amanda and laughing and crying with molly
wiping my tears away to start smsing
the feeling of WE'VE DONE IT. WE'VE DONE IT.

I can and must never forget that.
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youth is relative [Apr. 19th, 2009|08:06 pm]
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Can you believe that we were once that young and unburdened? I feel lighter already just looking at myself there.



Look at that. I already look older. And more jaded. (haha, you could say, I'm literally jaded.)

Youth is relative. I'm nearly 18, and I feel like I've lived forever.
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